adulthood

last year, my cousin, who i always considered my little girl, got married to the man of her dreams.

two days ago, my other sousin, still a baby himself, welcomed his son, my first nephew, into the world

this weekend, one of the people closest to me is taking the first step to being married to the man she hopes to spend the rest of her life with.

i dont know when we all grew up. i cant recall that pivotal moment when we became adults and were suddenly concerned with such wordly matters. i still feel like we're all kids, and we should be still out there enjoying the world and being young, from within. i fear for us, not because i think we're unprepared, but because i want to always be able to smile and think that no matter what happens, there will always be a time to fix things one day. i want to run on a beach and not worry about the waves overtaking me and about sharp shells poking my feet and about where im going because there is someone on the other end, waiting patiently to greet me.

i want to always think that we're protected, that there is something and somebody out there watching out for us....... that we can always stop and think that there is nothing to stop and think about.