2 am....

its slightly past two am, and im just home from an unplanned session with my best friends from college... despite all plans to do otherwise, us four nutjobs wound up polishing off a whole bottle of skyy vodka (damn the americans but im converted, this shit is good).

i guess whats so nice about it is the comfort i got from it... no issues, no need to redeem myself, i can show up depressed (which i did) and still be adored for it. after several rounds of taboo (i rock at that game) and even more rounds of alcohol we crawled our way back to our cars with our usual parting shots to call each other when we get home.

im as high as a vertigo-afflicted kite, but high nevertheless. hence this is no declaration of independence, not an explosion of intelligent repartee or political satire.

it is a 28-but-still-think-shes-21 young woman thanking her lucky stars that she is able to see her friends, indeed have any at all. ann, with whom i have come so so far. with kul, with whom edges i've softened and who's sharpened mine. To melvin, with whom ive come furthest of all.

there are more who deserve mention. again i have been blessed to meet all of those who do. but tonight, these three are the stars.

love,
anandhi

ha bloody ha

that i'm making TWO posts on the americans indicates some sort of unhealthy obsession, and youre probably correct... but lord they're so inane i cant help it. like how any adult is attracted, even if via nothing but sympathy, to the slowest child or the most ridiculed, so too is my attraction to the united states, and that comic strip that is the bush administration.

i wonder if it has at any point struck them, the magnanimity of the chaos theyve caused. and i hate to have to spell out the two main things taht have driven them to cause this bedlam - money, and religion. The two most important sectors of power. dont believe me? look at the history of what they fight for. the entire mess in kuwait was over oil, ewhich quals money. all their doing in iraq is over the same damn thing, bush snr wouldnt have given a damn about saddam the funny middle eastern man if there wasnt any oil involved. the mess theyve created in palestine and israel are religiously skewed as well - it pains me, how dare they use christ's name to inflict so much pain on palestinians. i am neither christian nor muslim, but this is ridiculous. Innocnet somali's suffer at the latest attacks as well - surprise surprise, attacks made specifically on muslim courts. Now the power has switched to ethiopia... say, who knew that was a christian country. coincidence? perish the thought.

and there's news of the US bombing Iran now? i shudder at teh thought. think about it... george bush is a loose cannon, and even if he has now a slightly tougher challenge in dealing with an opposing democratic congress now, the button is in his naive hand.

i usually hate watching tv, especially the news, but the latest gift to the idiot box of late has been al-jazeera. and i must say that has been such a pleasant antithesis to the banality of CNN. which i admit i have rescinded a long time ago in favour of the BBC, but still, my respect of al-jazeera's brand of news has increasingly soared into the stratosphere. i suppose some element of personal bias is present, its exposing our fairweather friends for their stupidity.. yet in the fairest most non-judgemental of ways. its a balm for my unsettled soul, but certainly a thimbleful of water in a forest fire as far as the iraqis and somalians go.

what a keener sense of awareness for teh rest of us will do is yet to be seen, especially since bush jr doenst seem to take the hint when leaders and countries all over the world stop agreeing with him, and a large majorioty of his own people have ceased to trust him too. when will he realise, all his interventions are like the cruel stab of a knife into someone... once stabbed, the damage is unretractable. it hurts to leave it in, it hurts to take it out.

pray tell mr bush, what will you do now? your southern twang and your nationalist talk gets you no further. tell us what to do with that knife of yours. and when you'll take it back for good.

to 2007

like a lot of people, this year i have a lot to be thankful for......... cept that mine are odd, out-there, and in no way what normal people thank the heavens (or the other powers that be) for. thank you:

for my parents - since they brought me in, they can take me out - hence, i thank them for lettin me live. ;) also, i owe them a hell of a lot for seeing me through past one of the toughest moments of my life... i had no idea they could be so understanding and appreciative of my pain. they let me live - far more than most parents allow their children, certainly certain parents and children ive been acquainted with.

for baby brothers - for just being them.

for baby cousins - for letting me raise them. and look at them today and realise that IS the life i want for myself one day. oh, and for letting me know what NOT to do so i dont screw my own kids over. ;)

for grandmothers - especially my own, for being forward thinking ahead of her time, watching me make my own mistakes and praying for my sanity when i did.

for friends - so i know who to send my kids to for what advice. in fact, for some of em, none at all. hahah.

for the american presidency - for providing me with a lifetime of comic relief. and teaching me taht there is a group of people who repudiate a man who had an affair but is an excellent administrator, to a man who is obviously besotted with the devil's court jester instead.

for saddam hussein - for teaching me the value of a fair trial, only because he was so unfairly denied one.

for Mohd Yunus and Grameem Bank - for understanding that poverty has a female face, and for believing in women's strength and power to heal it

for oprah winfrey - for giving such men and women a voice, and being such a kick ass babe herself

for supermodels - for giving me inspiration to be thin

for gavin yap - for reminding me that men like cheerful women who enjoy their food, rather than skinny bitchy girls (actually he told me this last year but im a slow study sometimes)

for yasmin ahmad - for always telling me im beautiful (anyone likes to be lied to sometimes)

for tom yam - cos its where june, rathika and i bond most of all

for sungai wang - COS DISCOUNT SHOPPING ROCKS, YA'LL!!

for bbce - cos tv now is no more the idiot box

for champagne and wine - for the constant excuse of talking too much sense for the inebriated

for my reading habit - for letting me escape once in a while. lord knows i needed it.

for george clooney and jude law - so my mother understands what sexy means and she knows which men to send my way. ;)

for london, paris, prague and budapest - for being the backdrop of my heart's adventure of the century

for god - for giving me the soundness of mind to be intelligent, for giving me strength of being to be compassionate, for giving me the gift of faith to always, always believe.

to 2006 - cheers!!!!