whats goin on??

cos ive just noticed something disturbing... my blog contains either entries on a broken heart or the tragedy that is american politics. one is however better than the other and Ive decided that my broken heart has healed enough for me NOT to display it any more.

i still hurt a whole lot but this is getting out of hand.... im not one those soppy brainless girls that demand attention and that everyone love them. so ok, he didn't love me enough to fight for me but so bleeding what? thats his right entirely. i may deserve much more, but he deserves to walk out of something he doesn't believe in too.

so to all the girls who read this and who can commiserate - get real ladies. we deserve so much better than to wallow, missin someone who we're better off without. we're all too good for this crap.

for other random people who wander to this blog, im much smarter than the last two entries allude to... so please read em all. (talk about self promotion but hey the pr side of me had to rub off somewhere)

my stiff upper lip has officially been unpacked. so watch it.

a past revisited

the problem with revisiting past errors is that it reminds you exactly why they're errors.... unfortunately only after youve revisited them.

sometimes feels like i will never learn. my heart gives in and believes the best in people despite my my head telling me otherwise. do i go with my head and distrust everyone, or do i go with my heart and continue getting hurt? its easy to tell me to go with my heart, its the romantic, idealist thing to do. which is exactly who i am. ive been such a fool, thinking that loving and caring unconditionally one day has its own rewards. if it does, ive yet to reap it. does it really make me a better person? does it really make any real difference? the ones who've walked away, who never felt any love, are happy, leaving me with my head in my hands and my heart in pieces.

if there;s anyone out there who knows where this is going, or if theyve seen the fruits of their labour of love, i'd like to hear it. i need to be reinspired, and reminded that loving someone with all your heart at some eventual point comes back to - in a good way. that wearing your heart on your sleeve and trusting someone will not leave you shattered.

i am tired. and i need some hope. and most of all, i'd like to meet a real man, and not the guy in the movies who ends up with the chick. need not even be mine to keep... just to know there are men who fight for the woman they love, who give in to her because he cant bear to see her less of something, who cries because he cant imagine life without her. someone who puts her and her needs first, even after he doesnt need to.

ahem ahem

ok ok back to my unhealthy obsession with the american presidency... but has anyone noticed, that the next election will make history no matter who wins? it will either be the US's first black president, or the first who is female.

apparently the big question at the moment is who should win, who is better, bla bla bla.... but i was faced recently with an interetsing perspective of things - why ask that question at all. its a dumb question, anmd its a divisive question. Dumb because a member of a group may not correctly represent the interestst of his group - Samy Velu hasnt done much, it stands to reason that this could happen anywhere.

And divisive because well, look at this way - women in general and humans of colour have always been grouped together as a minority, as a cause that fought on similar terms. Studies have shown that women often support coloured people fighting on pro-equality platforms, and non-white men reacting similarly to women (white or otherwise) on pro-equality grounds.

either which way, its a blessing. both candidates come with foreign policy experience (which Bush did not have, and still has no clue about), and both are civil rights advocates, feminists, environmentalists and critics of the war in Iraq.

heralds some interesting times ahead................